"The more things change the more they stay the same."
I have no idea who said that, but it is frightening how true it really is. Here I am, one week from the date of my sister's death, and I am back at LU doing homework and messing around on my computer. Altogether, though, I feel like I have been really just going through the motions.
It is almost creepy how fast a person can truly recover from such a tragedy with the help of the Lord. I'm sure that Jessica would want me to get on with my life, but thoughts of her are always in the back of my mind. I feel like there is a hole inside of me where she once was. I brought four of the Beanie Babies that she had collected with my to LeTourneau, along with two photos of her and a token somebody left near the guestbook at the visitation. It says: "Follow the footprints of the Lord. They will lead you through troubled times and brighten your life." On it's back (or front, whatever) it has a little drawing of two footprints in what I am assuming to be sand. If anyone wants to see the Beanie Babies and hear the story behind each one I picked out, my door is open.
I've also decided that I want to place a photo of my sister on this blog with a caption that says something like "In loving memory of Jessica. November 5, 1987--April 11, 2003." That will take some HTML manipulation, so I'll probably have to have a friend help me with it.
Posted by Randy at April 19, 2003 02:13 AM