Something happened to me today (yesterday, whatever) that I was sincerely hoping would never ever happen. For one brief moment, I forgot that my sister was dead. I was standing in line to get a drink in Saga when I ran into my peer advisor. We said hi, and for some reason I started wondering what college my sister would go to and what kind of peer advisor she would get. As soon as I finished that thought, the realization of her death hit me and I just almost dropped my tray. I actually had to force myself to move away from the drink fountain and go sit down. The feeling I experienced was almost as bad as when I first heard about what had happened to her. I'm blaming the whole incident on the lack of sleep I received the night before.
I remember reading a book in which the main character forgets that his mother was killed in an accident and tries to call her. He realizes what he has done the moment someone picked up the phone on the other end of the line. I remember thinking something like, "How could anyone forget that someone they loved died?" I then thought either they would have to go through an extremely traumatic experience as the guy in the novel had or they would have had to have not loved the person as much as they thought they did. Now I realize that the most disturbing thoughts can and will go through your head if you are tired.
Posted by Randy at April 29, 2003 02:07 AM