You know you're in a weird mood when you actually sit down and start watching a chick flick...
So, it's basically been one of those days. Started off all right; I thought it might actually be a decently warm day today. Nope. Good old East Texas weather, can't make up its mind. Instead, it got colder, water started dripping from the sky, and I realized how little real sunshine I'd had recently. Then I realized how dependent I am upon it.
Never mind the fact that it's only a couple of days until spring break; right now even two days seem like years. People are stupid. Guys are stupid, of course, but girls are just as stupid. And heartless, and unthinking. And everything else. The world's pretty heavy tonight, and I don't even have any reason for it to be so. I'm not in any trouble, my family's all fine, I'll be seeing cousins and aunts and uncles I love dearly in two days. I know I have a bunch of friends, and walking back from chapel I even had somebody I don't know just start talking to me out of the blue; he asked me if I was doing all right. I must have looked pretty down. I have everything I need, and yet I'm sitting here trying to pull myself out of a pretty nasty blue funk. I'll be ok in the morning; I always am. But right now the world's a cold, hard place.
Good thing my parents aren't reading this; they'd probably think I was in the midst of depression, and call, trying to cheer me up. I'd act like it was working, they'd hang up satisfied, and I'd be in just as weird a mood as I was before.
Oh, well. Life goes on. Tomorrow's another day, and the day after that I'm leaving this place for a whole week. Thank God for spring break.
Posted by Ardith at March 5, 2003 09:41 PM